I am on Facebook like so many of us and I saw this saying the other day:
“I am now grown and wise…. That’s because God kept me when I was young and foolish…..” WOW does this ever ring true.
I’ve sat and thought of everything that has transpired in the last year. It’s now 2022―Loved ones gone, friends gone (and still leaving), COVID-19, and families are so torn apart right now that it makes my head spin.
I know the devil has been soooo busy from 2019 – January 2022. He has built up so many walls and dividers that it seems there’s no getting around them; and our lives are not the same. It’s rather depressing to say the least.
We say for every action comes a reaction. We try to “fix” it, but is it really for us to try and fix? God instructs us to be “still” and let Him handle everything. But why is it that we can’t listen and do as instructed? I take this from personal experience when I tried to hold onto people who did not want to be bothered. I guess it was my way of trying to make up for the wrong I had done in my past. I gave them money and cars; I even let them live in my house. After all of that, sadly, I learned a harsh reality―I was only beating myself up. I ended up losing things that God had already told me to let it go.
NEXT CAME VENGEANCE!
Here’s the definition of vengenance: venge·ance /ˈvenjəns / noun / punishment inflicted, or retribution exacted for an injury or wrong.
I was so past hurt, that I wanted to strike back at the people who had hurt me when I was trying to go out of my way to help them. But was the helping for them or for me to make myself feel better for the pain I had caused in the past? It took me time to analyze; and while I was thinking it through, I heard Pastor Mack, Sr quote these very verses:
Deuteronomy 32:35 ”To me belongeth vengeance and recompence; their foot shall slide in due time: for the day of their calamity is at hand, and the things that shall come upon them make haste.”
Romans 12:19 “Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.”
It was after acknowledging God’s true word, that I let go and let Him take that vengeance in my heart away. Sure, I still have days that I regret, but I am now to the point I can deal with it for I know that God has my back and has the final say. I am the wiser for what transpired and I’m moving forward with no regrets any longer.
I do hope I have helped someone with what I have said and that your journey be filled with the joy of the Lord.
God Bless.
Sister Beverly A. Smith
